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I’ve always had issues w what I thought I looked like and what I actually looked like. For a long while I thought I was huge. So I basically ate nothing and worked out alot. Even with all that I still felt… like a big girl.. which is how I felt since elementary school. This was especially in my face b/c we all know I have big cheeks. Well somehow in the middle of the fall last year I actually started to gain a significant amount of weight… but I actually like it. I like how it looks and… now its a problem for everyone. IE mom.. family members, friends. I’m so over being the perfect daughter. This is the first time where I really like where I am at and i keep hearing all this crap about watching what I eat and exercising.. Mind you I work out a lot esp w my roomies and I do watch what i eat bc I rarely eat anyways. During the semester I am lucky if I remember to eat One meal per day.. and no its never balanced. But whatever I gained the weight and I like it and I think everyone should shut up. lol I do realize my abs need to come back tho… woweee =)

Twas Blog Surfing and I came across this

I know they are just coworkers BUT… the feelings they had to sing about this and make a video this way had to have come from somewhere. I’m sure people often find themselves in an embrace that you really do not want to let go. You lay there in bliss looking for a way to make it last longer and never end. *rolls eyes… I don’t know why people don’t believe in love, its so real and powerfully. It more than the emotion that causes people to act crazy but its that force that makes you feel whole, light headed, and naturally high. =) I love everything about this song and video. Superficially they are both hot! Timothy Bloom’s voice reminds me so much of why I love Old pre-60′s R&B and soul… and again he is GOOORGEOUUUSSS (oprah voice) replay replay replay.

But seriously if you have that idea of what overwhelming love is i’m sure you can overlook the fact that they are both in the nude and its more of an artistic way of undressing you heart, breaking barriers and allowing the love to make an eternal bond.
Yes Im crazy for love… ignore me if you will.

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I feel like many people blog hoping NO ONE reads anything they blog… or maybe thats just me. Yeh.. or maybe I just like blogging for strangers and it makes me cringe to know that My loved ones and people I hold close & dear would find out how I really feel. Whatever….

I much rather people’s blogs than fiction, we only really get know know about the rich and famous while everyone else keeps their interesting lives bottled up with regrets and fear of people finding out about their darkest secrets and most embarrassing moments. Not to be a creep but I actually care to know. I dont mean to be invasive, i just cant seem to understand why I cant know what others are thinking especially when there are so many people out there! It is just selfish to keep all of your good stories and daily experiences to yourself.
Or im just nosey.. lol that may be it. such is life…..




I wish there were more people who blogged or talked about this whole Undergrad Pre-med & Medical school lifestyle. LIKE…. what did you do how did you think and how did you get there. I know some people are tough and must breeze through it but I just need to know other experiences and how to deal with mine. Dont get me wrong, I know exactly what I want and what I would like to do but now…. I dont know how I want to do any of these things. I always felt this way but now it is pressing on my mind and stressing me out. Its time again when I pick up my Ben Carson Book and remember that not everything works the way I want it to, also God always makes away.. even if it means Its not what i want. I promise that book has gotten be through alot. Time to read it.. AGAIN to get some more motivation -_-

So the song matters b/c the to me its like the book is the string im using to remember =) (listen to the song)

click this I dont usually take things from tumblr but that was just… a duh duh duh duh true image^

If you know me very well you know what I mean when I say Denise Huxtable Syndrome… right now I am Denise to the point of no return. I really need divine intervention . I’ll eventually figure stuff out, no stress right? This is what I get for always wanting more than I need. Dreaming big is a burden. =/ until you actually make it. Patiently waiting.


I know you heard my Crying and saw my tears. I know you heard my plea for you. I know that you saw how much I needed your glory to shine upon my dark situation. The enemy saw and heard all of this too. I am thankful that you are always there for me, tribulations are jokes to me because you ALWAYS hear my Cry, thank you for never forsaking me. I am ever grateful baba. My tears of anguish have now become tears of joy. I know you had to intervene and show me your divine favor because I am a really ugly crier and you really must have gotten tired of seeing me look so wild. lol I love you Daddy.

I dont understand how so many people go through life not believing in My God, why wouldn’t you just give him a chance, he is always there!!! I dont know anyone who has gotten me out of trouble this many times no questions asked. He just gives and gives and gives. My God is a good God. I cant begin to start to explain how good he is. My tears of despair were just fresh in my eyes and literally 5 minutes into my bawling I got a phone call giving me GREAT news that turned it all around.

I might not provide much entertainment advice or really much of anything but complain on tis blog but if I can reach to the few people that do visit my Blog i want to tell you to honestly give your life to the everlasting God. He honestly is going to be there no matter what. He will do things for you you could never imagine.

I cant wait to go to church on Sunday and TESTIFY!!! These past few months have been soo up and down for me I’ve been waiting to testify and now I need to tell others about the goodness of the lord in my life. HE IS SOOOOO SOOO SOOOOO SOOOOO GOOOD!! I didnt have to make a phone call, write a letter, beg, i just looked up into the hills and asked him for help!
Psalm 121 <3 always and forever

First and foremost, happy birthday to my younger brother Femi! He knows me better than i know myself, he remembers all the memories i purposely forgot. lol I confide in him more than anyone, friends and blog. My actual first best friend that can never leave me alone because we are bound by blood. I love him so much, he is so young and i want nothing but the best for him. No one can imagine how happy it makes me when He surpasses my accomplishments in life. I pray for God to bless him so much! God I love my brother. I was blessed with a good one. <3 LOVE YOU FEMI... ( his name is actually translated to "love me"... so everyone loves him by default) Thanks for being my rock and I hope im becoming a better sister as the days go by snookums!

On to me ummm I’m thinking A lot. mY sophomore year is over and every thing that happens from now on is CRITICAL to my future. Im trying to plan everything out and be strategic but its pointless because God has everything planned out for me already. He knew me my name my life my ambitions and my heart while I was still in womb and before then. So its so silly that I am still scared of everything. I am super driven and anxious and excited but I dont want to fail myself nor do i want to fail, Femi, My parents, my sibs…. still myself. No one nows how hard I am on myself. I plan too hard but Its not a bad thing I guess. My sister and I were just hanging out last week and she starts yelling, “omg im still thinking… and busy thinking”… Im all like.. wth thats fun. think till you implode, funny im trying to tell my mind to chillout right now. clearly that isnt working. I am still up at 4:34 thinking… crazy fast no rest worried.. excited… a bit kinda pissed thinking. =||


I never took Friday the 13th superstitions to be real, its silly to me, A day cannot be dedicated to bad luck and misfortunes. Yesterday was the exception for me, I know it had nothing to do with the actual date but Friday the 13th is not the day you want to hear bad news. Well I had been working on a project all year now, since the beginning of last summer. I put my Physical emotional and spiritual strength into making sure everything worked out well, I stressed, lost sleep , didn’t eat, cried prayed and stressed much more. I really thought it was going to work out the exact way I wanted but I guess that was silly of me.
Cliché moment, -Failing to plan is planning to fail…. but to me planning too much is just setting yourself up for failure.

Yeaaah….. I was super devastated when I realized my project didn’t end up the way I wanted but I surprised myself. I didn’t cry, nor did I whine… I just slept it off. I’m maturing I guess… last time something like this happened I bawled like a baby so its interesting to see I handled it like this, yay me.

I’ll have other opportunities to excel in life and Everything will work out for the good because Jesus said so… mhmm no stressing just blessings =)


I really want to blog about a lot but I dont have the patience to write it all down in one sitting, and Im sleepy… So

I wish It was Father’s day already So I could give my Daddy another Awesome ” I love you, you are the best person in the world,a nd the number one daddy, and the ulimatee pops!!!” gift I love that man way too much. Of course it would be a gift my mom would benefit from too since she is uber awesome as well.

I wish the info I need right now, would be at my fingertips….. right now.

I wish my siblings got out of their teenage phase, they are far worse than I was.. and I had an extreme teenage phase I thought I was so mature and wise.

I wish it was fall 2011, My season of AWESOME!

I wish it was Summer 2011, my season of Rendezvous ;-)

I wish the super duper amount of hits/visits I receive each month was evident in my comments… yall need to comment and stop stalking my life w/o input -_____- its so unfair.

I wish for a castle, a chariot, and a knight.. not in a literal sense nor what you may think… My fantasy world is something else.

I wish it was morning so I could wake up to JOHN LEGEND already, sounds crazy buuuuut that wish is coming true, bet, I’ll have photos, k goodnight I must have my beauty rest for John =)

So about my summer rendezvous, I’ve had the most enchanting summers since I was about 13 and its really cute too because I get butterflies whenever I think about them. Because i was in beast student/working woman mode last summer no butterflies fluttered in my tummy but I have a good feeling I’m going to have one of those memorable ones this year, Although Im going to be busy as all heck I’ll enjoy it!

and now we bump to Adele— summer breeze music!